Goodbye Hef


Mr Hefner
I have so many thoughts, I have no brain n right now to edit
I am me because of you
You taught me everything important about freedom and respect.
Outside of my family
You were the most important person in my life.
You gave me my life... People tell me all the time
That I was your favorite...
I'm in such deep shock.
But you were old,
your back hurt you so much.
Last time I saw you
You were using a walker.
You didn't want me to see.
You couldn't hear.
You had a piece of paper in your pocket you showed me -
with my name Pamela with a heart
around it.

I'm falling apart.
This feeling is so crazy.
It's raining in Paris now.
I'm by the window.
Everything anyone loves about me is because you understood me.
Accepted me
and encouraged me to be myself.
Love like no one else.
Live recklessly
With unfiltered abandon.
You said the magazine was about a girl like me. That I embody the spirit you fantasized about.
I was the one.
You said.

I can hear you say -

Be brave.
There are no rules.
Live your life
I'm proud of you.
There are no mistakes.
And with men -
Enjoy ... (Your wonderful laugh)
You have the world by the tail
You are a good girl
you are so loved -
You are not crazy.
You are wild and free
Stay strong,
Stay vulnerable. ... "It's movie time"

You loved my boys ... You were always, always there for us.
With your love
Your crazy wisdom.
I will miss your everything.
Thank you for making the world a better place.
A freeer and sexier place.
You were a gentleman
charming, elegant, chivalrous
And so much fun.
Goodbye Hef ... Your Pamela