Is this Love?
I have lost all confidence
and faith in myself.
I’m ready.
To swim away.
I have prepared my boys for life best I can. A good education.
A life of love and poetic advice.
These next 10
days I will see my sons buy their first home together. I’m so proud of them.
I have paid my mortgage on my house.
I have paid my car off finally.
I’m building my parents dream house before Christmas on my property in Canada.
I should be happy. I should be on top of the world.
But I am
Sad.
Nothing makes sense.
Why?
TF1 Sept 29, 2018 (France only) Danse Avec Les Stars
I don’t think it’s about how to win or wining but if I strive to push myself and do the best that I can do that’s the ultimate success! truly knowing that I couldn’t have done any better than I did
that’s winning
Especially someone like myself-
I see myself differently in a different world.
That attitude that kind of mindset is different and beyond most individuals
who are satisfied with just being there “in the moment”....
Since I am dancing
I will freaking dance my ass off -
dance my heart and soul out!
I will have an out of body experience as if it was the last time I’ll ever dance in my life.
What would that look like? We will see. I don’t know either.
I will find that energy and embrace it this is another beautiful opportunity in life where once again I can touch the sun!
I want to amaze -
this is what I want to do -
I want to fly like a bird.