Smoldering

Before I met Julian - I was writing a play/stage show for off Broadway - I had Sean Penn in mind for the Steve McQueen role. And was going through a sticky divorce.
Julian had seen this poem somehow. It peaked his interest in meeting me. It's been awhile since I read it. And it is a work in progress. I'm going to create a show for Crazy Horse in Paris.
Most likely for a July 2018-

This might be the inspiration :

Smoldering

I know it's bad for you...
But, this is when I wish,
I had a cigarette-
something I've never tried- (light up)
some kind of relief..
I wish it was Italy 40 years ago--
The moon rising over the Amphitheater--
to tremendous applause... like Herzog (clap)
Europeans don't seem to care about silly
smoking laws?,
We do what we want anyway -
behind closed doors--
Our true character, collective complexities.
childish activities -
patterns- genetics? Attention deficit-
- ...SEX ... a lost art-- a sickness--
Perversions-
Lost sensuality -
The cruel smell of orange blossoms...
I love being in love-- but expectations,
make it impossible to be happy-
or satisfied...
I've tried... so hard..
maybe it's not in fashion--
Tradition...just seemed so romantic...,
I guess it's a used up ideal --
for the old fashion...
not modern...frown emoticon
Female security... lost-
no way--
Coded, and loaded Cell phones,
Computers --
Ordering sex on line-
is like ordering a book on Amazon--
and ... snooping eats you alive--
A mirrored action. obsessive love...
unhealthy,
hopeless- knocked sideways--
There is always this feeling -
of discontent--
Like something is off...
I can't put my finger on why--
Who wants to be the Warden--
I want out of here-- out of this time --
in space--
Grey, muted crystals,
from unsavory places-
bad intentions,
dull- no fire-- a secret life -
Laying in my hotel bed--
pulling up my stockings- carefully
re-attaching to the garter- ,
The Cuban heel- the line
(right on course)
the works...
Feeling a little guilty-
I started to fantasize--
Il Postino, Pablo Neruda-
Should I go to Capri--?
So frustrated--
burning... questions...
No man knows what to do with me--
I blame myself--
To play with me, is eternal--
I'm not 'on the clock' or...
on the 'payroll'--
rrrr--
I had to get out of the room-
The velvet stuff and porcelain things
closing in on me--
What have I done...?
I knew it was wrong from the start--
primitive-- base instinct..
Never marry a rich man...
Euros from a Vagabond..
Just start walking - (Like Jeanne Moreau and
Miles Davis)
Never look back-
There is only beauty ahead,
Salvation..
Glory
Rushing...
I almost forgot where I was-- shit--
My white
Burberry trench -
- on the floor?
A Park-ay floor...
(Narration by a deep voiced sexy black guy)
BG- She stopped to admire it's clever design,
ME- "So pretty"
BG wrapped herself up---
She snuck out the door with a quiet click,
and Seamlessly, floating down the hall- (on wire)
Her Tom Ford feet didn't
touch the ground--
Falling gracelessly into an elevator
playing Nat King Cole's .... Stardust?
(remembering the movie)
ME- "Fallen Angel?"
BG Nobody was up yet-
out into the cool world she goes,
ME-"Freedom...
I can breathe..."
BG- looking for a little human contact?
Playful seduction? ...
ME- "I'm so Hungry..."
BG- Her heart was racing---
It was barely dawn --
Bathed in perfect light-
magic hour-- --
ME- "Everyone looks good this early"
BG- Even cats and hummingbirds
Was anyone watching her..
She gazed up into dark windows...
to nobody...
and let the jacket fall loosely around
her shoulders...
The rush coming back- ...
a little lost on purpose,
Hiding around corners,
ME- so dangerous-
my body is on fire....
my body is never done-- trouble finds me--
please find me-
The iron is always hot!"
BG- She Leaned against the cool wall of a
stoney church-
It felt good, soothing-
ME- I wonder how prostitution works-
Does it ever feel good?
Lost little souls - being taken advantage of--
or taking advantage of-
Is it just for money? Is it for attention?
or --- both--
Women suffer-
- Everywhere...
rules, rules, rules--
conflicting needs..
I can't find the answers-- It's an epidemic--
I know I won't compete with a computer, PlayStation,
or - a gaggle of Hollywood boys hiring poor
Eastern stolen girls to swallow loaves of bread
up their anus'?- and
make them bark like seals --?
How does that work?"
BG- She was disturbed--
How far can she take this?-- Is it even real?--
ME- "Have we lost men to thin air---
to the Abyss-- to technology and lube-
Flesh is attached to a heart and a brain-
takes effort...and skill...
Where are the great lovers?-- A lost art...
God , I hope not...
I've never been to Columbia-- Should I go?- I really want to go!
Is this Hysteria?...
Objectification?
now-- Coming down from the ceiling,
dripping in gold glitter--
Dancing with Nureyev- eyes closed---
the dream...
arousing my tenderness,
A sweet rawness-
feeling bruised and scratched up--
Hypnotic -
Life is sensual-- not a "fix it in post"--
ME- I miss PLAYBOY-
The End of an Era--
Chivalry, elegance-
Celebrated imperfections -
differences... hot---passionate dreamy scenes...
The girl next door-- shyness-- "it's my first time"
but - not my last....(wink)
-- I'm planning a mysterious coup--
Want to get in on it--
Julian Assange?
Is it healthy, to be fantasied about...
by many men --?
Isn't that the goal-
How many can we effect--
It's natural-- to want to be desired--
The world creeps up on you--
and there you are,
ALL over the place-
places you never intended to be-- (desert storm?)
(soldiers)
I am human you know--
left to adjust to the madness-
No mercy- pay the price-- my fault-
BG- feeling empty, sad-- withdrawn-
Left to Isolate-- Medicate.
Go to sleep--
ME-NO! I wont- -
ME- You know- It's not freaky enough,
to just be beautiful--
I've never felt beautiful-
I always felt sexual... and blind..
oh wowwy... I'm losing my mind--
I'm shutting down-- It's such a strange feeling...
going numb... in front of everyone----
It's like a Self inflicted drowning...hard to do--
(Alarm bells!!)---
When did I want to be this thing?--
To attract what?
When did I go from a curious little girl,
to an insatiable woman? Girl on the run...
Femme fatale... devoted and ....divided.
Are we all going crazy? -
or, is it just me?
Is it that stuff on unwashed vegetables?
When did I lose control over my own heart?--
When did I start believing ,
That this is all I'm good for-
against my better judgement--
fell for it- dammit- it all backfired--
It doesn't feel good to be used, neglected, ignored---
controlled....
I'm not doing this---
It's humiliating - I have to turn this around--
Settling is powerless- desperate--
an illusion--
Can't buy your way out of this one ...buddy!!,
I'm cold-
(She can't stop laughing..)
Reminds me of a play I wrote --
That one about The Hell's Angels,
starring -
Steve McQueen and Brigitte Bardot--
The Entr' Acte....
** A car chase-
She is going on and on (in french) and
He's just trying to have his way with her-
everything is double entree' Funny/Sexy-(subtitles projected)
They've stolen billions in diamonds - she's dripping from head to toe...
in a sparkly madness of laughter--- 60's Porsche?- (or that GT/Bullit car)
All in a Car - bouncing and swerving-- lights- facing the audience-- (with B/W projections from the 60's behind them--)...
They fall in love-- They fall apart---
I'm not sure what the The Hells Angels have to do with it--
but they stay in the title---
The End
(Is near ....)

Huffington

What inspired you to become a voice for the safety of female passengers in ride hail apps like Uber and Lyft and what do you hope to accomplish through this PSA? I think it is worth to mention here overall problems with gig economy. I find it really pathetic how these companies exploit their drivers - they are not considered employed even if they exclusively work for these companies. They get no sick pay, no holidays pay. They are supposed to be liberated entrepreneurs but they are de facto precarious workers exploited by global companies. So it is important to remember that when trying to fight for safety of passengers, this is not a fight against Uber drivers and this needs to go hand in hand with attempts to draw attention to the conditions under which they operate, and how the companies are taking advantage of them. These issues are linked and should be addressed jointly.

What are your thoughts on the #MeToo hashtag campaign? does it unite victims or is it problematic? There is no excuse for sexual harassment and abuse and any industry, not just entertainment and Hollywood, has responsibility to eradicate itin their respective field. To be honest, i have been really critical of this "campaign"... it is actually not even a campaign, campaigns usually have a target and objectives and i am not sure this does. But that is a minor point. I personally think that this "campaign" is not helping anything and anyone... there are so many issues with it. Just to name few:- we are not creating some myth that nobody knew about sexual harassment, we just woke up it existed.... or we were all aware of it but women were scared of talking about it. Which begs a question of what has been feminist movement doing for last 50 years that women were not empowered to speak out but now, some hashtag liberates them. To me, this looks like justifying something we want to believe in while it is not there.

- Sexual harassment should be dealt with when it happens, and there should be proper processes to deal with it. Nothing changes is someone writes about it on social media.

- Trial by mob. If we believe in rule of law and proper procedures, we should believe in innocent till proven guilty. It has not happened in many of the recent cases.

- On psychology level, there are actually studies that expressing rage on social media diminishes ability and willingness to actually deal with it in the real like. this is a very good article on it www.wired.com/story/the-problem-with-me-too-and-viral-outrage/in summary "however, #MeToo is a too-perfect meme. It harnesses social media’s mechanisms to drive users (that’s you and me) into escalating states of outrage while exhausting us to the point where we cannot meaningfully act. In other words, #MeToo—despite the best intentions of so many participating—is everything that’s wrong with social media. Outrage is central to the design of most social media platforms—for very good reason. It’s an emotion that inspires sharing, which causes all of us to spend more time engaged with the platform. And that translates directly to revenue for the companies."

I think that the main problem with these sort of initiatives is that women should not be encouraged to talk about it - to share bad stories. But do something about it beyond social media. And i am not sure that is happening. It seems like everyone will be like, yeh, we outed few people, we cried about it on social media, few weeks in a row, same old story. These are few problems.

Are you surprised by the recent surge in women coming forward or do you believe it was a long time coming? Personally, this comes in certain waves. In 1991, there was Anita Hill (Clarence Thomas controversy) and if you read coverage of that period, it was claimed it was a defining moment against sexual harassment. There were no social media but tons of women were writing to Anita Hill and at least in the USA, the situation very much looked like now... then, 25 years later, the same thing. Maybe this shows that we do not need big eureka moments for this sort of problems but continuous hard work to ensure that problems are resolved rather than being highlighted every quarter of century...

In a recent interview, you mentioned that you identify as an 'anti-feminist'. can you elaborate on what this phrase means to you? i do not think i am anti-feminist!! there is no one "feminism" - there are feminism’s. i have a problem with the contemporary "victim-hood type of feminism" which portraits women as weak victims or "vulnerable". I am an old fashion feminist who believes in equality and empowerment. That women should be empowered and be able to do what they want to do, be it a mother, homemaker, ceo, model, scientist, activist, teacher or anything. So if we do subscribe to the popular notion of "feminism" that women are victims, then i may be anti-feminist ;)

although-the uber recent media coverage:

Uber fined $8.9 million by Colorado for allowing drivers with felony convictions, other driver’s license issues – 11/20/17• Colorado’s public utilities commission claims that Uber had background check information that should have disqualified over 50 people from becoming drivers but allowed them to drive anyway. Uber is facing a class action lawsuit from U.S. riders alleging assault – 11/14/17• two women are calling for Uber to change many of its driver screening practices on behalf of all sexual assault and harassment victims by their drivers.• both women were assaulted by their drivers and claim that Uber misled passengers on thesafety of the service.• the women argue that Uber’s inadequate background checks create a “system within whichbad actors can gain access to vulnerable victims.” California woman sues Uber for negligence in alleged rape by driver – 11/16/17• a woman claims that Uber did not do enough to properly vet the driver who assaulted her.• she is suing for negligence, fraud, assault, battery and emotional distress.• following the assault, the driver was arrested and charged with rape. the criminal case isongoing.• according to the complaint, the driver had a documented history of domestic violence andsexual abuse. Uber driver charged with sex assault – 11/20/17• Uber driver was arrested and charged with sexual assault, assault and disorderly conduct.• victim claims she was in the vehicle with two friends when the driver began asking about her chest size and reached over to grab her chest multiple times. PAVE & NLA position points:• it is critical that ride-hailing apps conduct the strictest possible background checks on all drivers to ensure the utmost safety for all passengers.• ride-hailing apps should be held to the same hiring and operating standards of taxi and private car services.• while these standards and checks cannot completely solve the problem, they are a huge step forward for violence prevention.• sexual assault victims of ride-hailing services must be treated the same as any other victims and must not be blamed in way regardless of why they used the services, their physical/mental state, etc.

pa/

*still, i think that the issue of safety of passengers needs to be addressed jointly with the whole way how gig/share economy works and also address the position of drivers and conditions under which they operate. So Uber and other companies have to stop pretending they are just operating software that links drivers and passengers as they are much more. And with that, comes more responsibility which they so far largely refused to accept.

Megyn Kelly/Today Show Interview

- as for thé question re-
Harvey Weinstein/ Trump’s blatant disrespect of women.
A lot of abuse and even more stigmatization comes from supporting political causes that are not popular in mainstream, including hollywood liberal crowds.
I know I’m blacklisted in Hollywood -
It’s ok-
That
There are a lot of people in Hollywood that don’t agree with my politics but I’m more interested in working with the ones who do...For, I trust my heart
My Instagram and Twitter numbers are crazy. So low - I’m not sure why. It’s a rebellious move to follow me. It’s maybe a bit radical ? But it’s honest. Not popular. I know this.
It only encourages me to work harder to reach more people.
Few in America are pleased with my Assange association -
they cannot let it go.
They refuse to see the truth.
They have to blame someone - it all seems slightly Karmic - though - false allegations turned into a flood of truthful allegations - where the real culprits lay—
Justice is due-
These days,
Î’m sure many men in Hollywood are scared that their awful behaviour and sex abuse will be exposed.
But the whole Hollywood is even more scared of women with an opinion (or even worse, woman with a different opinion than what is popular).  

- When it comes to the causes I support, they are all connected by compassion and justice. those are not some random picks - wars, oceans, climate change, violence, refugees, women and abuse- but they are all connected -
I know how all these things are interlinked.

- this is also WHY am I supportive of wikileaks and Julian Assange -He understands all these causes and how local is global.
His main message is JUSTICE.
His key core message in early 2009:
our cause is justice, our tool is transparency.

As for Russian propaganda?
This reminds me of the 1930s and how everything was blamed on the Jews then. And how people are as willing to believe the Russia conspiracy theories as quickly as they used to
believe anti-Semitic ones.
I often tell people when they complain about Russians: "Just replace Russia with the Jews" and it usually sets people straight.

Q and A / Poland

I’ve never had a chance ...
(To do a great film)
Even though great directors like Tarantino and Herzog are curious and have shown interest in me. Maybe the Safdie brothers, Sean Penn and James franco.
The misfits-
the rebels are those that love me the most. The last of the romantics.
The punks.
Vivienne Westwood and David LaChapelle.
Ed Ruscha and Richard Prince.
Jeff Koons and Santé D’Orazio
Tony Shafrazi and Schnabel.
I’m not an easy fit.
Even Nick Cassavetes said he could win me a Golden Globe-.
Then why do I run far far away.
My favorite game as a young girl.
Boys chase the girls.
But no one wanted to play with me.
Try and catch me ...?
I’ve created an image that might be bigger than any role I could play.
It was too easy -
Performance art is just walking out the door -
I don’t know if I’m talented.
I have so much to express.
It makes me crazy.
I want to dance but I can’t dance.
I want to paint but I can’t paint.
I want to bend light into words.
I love words.
I love to write.
Maybe this is something I’m good at.
Writing.
Sketching body parts
So many fantasies, short stories.
Images flying through my head.
Artists understand me like Amanda Lepore, Sergei Polunin and Daniel Lismore.
Maybe
I haven’t unearthed what I’m here to do yet as an artist. Something new. Something no one has seen yet. This is the dilemma.
What to do?
I’m rumbling from head to toe.
I feel volcanic.
Alive and Dead at the same time.
My romantic life ...
A movie.
Maybe
I AM an actress.
Please someone tell me -
I battle wild swings of emotion.
I am not always safe in my own hands.
I make a lot of people angry,
confused-
insecure.
I have no sense for business.
I have no desire to have any sense at all -
Especially for business.
But
I’m always provided for.
I wish I could help more.
Have a bigger voice.
I know where I stand in America.
On the edge.
I won’t be silenced.
The rest of the world is greater.
More in tune and loves me much much more.
I am not afraid.
I am still safe
But feel like I -
I barely
hold on to my sanity ...

Pamela Anderson Puts a Chic Foot Forward in Support of Animal Rights

Vogue Style Review

Does an activist have a "look"? Well, you wouldn't normally think so. But when Pamela Anderson took to the London streets in support of animal rights today, it was clear she was out to make both a sartorial and a social statement. Buttoned up into a chic gray Vivienne Westwood wool coat, the PETA ambassador ditched her more body-conscious minidresses in favor of a ladylike outfit that could take on the powers that be.

Layering a black sweater underneath her prim and proper outerwear and shielding her eyes with a pair of blackout cat-eye sunglasses, Anderson stepped out in chic black stilettos-vegan leather, we imagine. Tucked inside her flower-print handbag? A letter to British Prime Minister Theresa May urging a ban on the use of animals in circuses. Clearly style and activism can go hand in hand.

Hans Klok 2018 Tour Featuring Pamela Anderson

1/16 Hamburg

1/17 Hamburg

1/26 Mannheim

2/8/Berlin

2/9/Berlin

2/16 Frankfurt

2/24 Cologne

2/25 Cologne

3/3 Bregenz 

3/8 Bremen 

3/17 Salzburg 

3/18 Wein

4/10 Munchen 

4/12 Munchen 

www.hansklok.org/tickets/

American Myths of Thanksgiving Holiday

Thanksgiving is an opportune moment to look at many myths around the origins of this cherished American holiday. It is supposed to celebrate first successful harvest by Pilgrims, in some joyful symbiosis with a native American people, I think called Wampanoag tribe. This sweet, mostly family, tradition is a myth. Thanksgiving tradition does not trace back to 1621 in Plymouth but was created much later, in the first half of the 19th century. There were not even any turkeys, or sweet potato and that sort of stuff. Even the claim that "Pilgrims" were after religious freedom is a myth. If people bothered to check proper history sources, they would have found out that the Pilgrims were against religious freedom! They were religious zealots. Historians show that in the USA, the religion has been often used to discriminate others and to kill "heathen" natives as well as "heretics".  

It is nice to give thanks for all the good things in life but Americans should also remember that "Thanksgiving" happened on the back of the plight and de facto genocide of American native people - sanctioned by the governments, on the back of numerous atrocities, massacres, slaughter and their continuous discrimination. These should not be conveniently forgotten.

Myths in American history: American historical narrative is full of myths. Starting with the American Revolutionary War or the American War of Independence which is still used as an excuse for the American exceptionalism. With all its romantic narratives of oppressed colonists
bravely overturning the British monarchy. But in fact, there was very little of popular movement in the Revolutionary War, it was mostly male and whites and it was about expansionism and dominant values of capitalism. Plus already mentioned genocide of native people and
slavery.

Then there is also the myth of the American Civil war, another commonly misunderstood part of the USA history: people believe that its aim was to ended slavery. In reality, the aim of the Republicans at the start of the war was to restore the country to its pre-secession states, including slavery.

I am not an expert on this but it seems to me that all American wars are based on some myths one way or another. From the Cold War, the Vietnam war to the most recent ones in the Middle East and North Africa, in Afghanistan. American military is always projected as liberators while all we can see are millions of slaughtered and displaced civilians in all places the Americans have invaded and wages wars on.

This whole American political narrative of "freedom and democracy" is a myth and a lie and total travesty. It is said that you cannot understand politics, unless you also understand economy and military-industrial complex. This is for a good reason, especially in the USA with is interlinked military and financial oligarchy.

Now, to this massive military-industrial complex we can add massive surveillance capacities of the US intelligence apparatus.

Which leads to the third common myth: American myth of freedom of speech! People wrongly believe that freedom of speech is absolute in the USA and is some sort of pinnacle of American democracy. This is a total nonsense. There are many instances in which freedom of speech can be
restricted under the US laws and is often restricted indeed.

A prime example of this is the case of Wikileaks! We can add to that many cases of whistleblowers, and many  people critical of the government or corporations or other powerful institutions. There so many examples, I do not even know where to start. 

It is a myth to claim there is freedom of speech in the USA if critical voices and whistleblowers are ostracised and prosecuted and punished. If freedom of information is limited under spurious claims of national security. If people Julian Assange are kept arbitrarily detained and smeared with made up accusations and are subject to frequent ad hominem attacks. If the mainstream press is in cahoots with the political establishment and corporations.

More importantly, this time and age, we are showed all over again that speech is and never will be free if it is not freedom from capital.

Just this week, I am so angry at FCC revealing plans to kill net neutrality.

I am so angry at Eric Schmidt of Alphabet/Google and Facebook announcing that they will pro-actively delist certain sites and information to fight alleged "foreign propaganda".

There is so much evidence that these companies are restricting access to leading progressive and anti-war sites. And now they are confirming they will step up these efforts.

There is no free speech in the USA if companies (and governments) track and monitor all our online activities. There is no free speech i if these companies (and governments) tell us what we can access online, what we can read and debate.

Now, there are so many myths that influence our lives on daily basis. The question is what we can do about  them. Thanksgiving (unlike New Year) is meant to be time for reflection. So I encourage all Americans to make an effort to learn their true history and present politics. To learn from it. And to do something to change the current state of affairs.

#Resist  

Letter to Taoiseach Mr. Leo Varadkar

Dear Mr. Varadkar,
I was thrilled to hear the news from my friends at PETA that Ireland will ban wild-animal circuses. While I celebrate this victory and look forward to raising a glass of Guinness with your predecessor the next time I'm in town, I'm now looking to celebrate with you what I very much hope will be the next victory for animals: an end to fur farming in Ireland.

I admired your strength in promising, at this year's Dublin LGBTQ Pride, to be "the voice for toleration, respect, and equality" – and wish you'd extend this compassion to all living beings.

From the moment they're born to the moment they die, the more than 200,000 minks imprisoned in squalid cages on the country's three remaining fur farms endure tremendous suffering. They're denied the opportunity to act on any of their natural instincts – such as roaming, swimming, and caring for their young. After months of confinement and mental torment, their tiny lungs are filled with poison gas – a perverse killing method that sometimes only stuns them, so they end up being skinned alive.

As you undoubtedly know, many countries have already outlawed farming animals for their fur, including your closest neighbours: England, Northern Ireland, Scotland, and Wales. I can't think of anyone more capable of creating history once again than you, Ireland's youngest and first openly gay prime minister. Please, would you pull up those stylish socks of yours and announce a ban on fur farming in Ireland?

I greatly look forward to clinking glasses with you when that happens.

Sincerely yours,
Pamela Anderson