Report from National Domestic Violence Hotline

The National Domestic Violence Hotline (The Hotline) is a vital service that answers the call to support and shift power back to victims and survivors of relationship abuse through human connection and practical assistance—24 hours a day, seven days a week, 365 days a year. We are so grateful for the support of the Pamela Anderson Foundation in 2018. Your gift of $30,000 truly changed lives. 

Since our lines first opened in 1996, we have received nearly 5 million contacts from people all over the country who depend on us in their most vulnerable time of need. Because of you, and all that you do to support our mission, we have been able to change lives by providing a path to safety, strength, and recovery. 

In 2018, we answered more than 370,000 contacts from people all over the United States and its territories; people who felt they could finally seek the help they need and let their voices be heard. Because of your support, we can provide a path to safety for thousands of people – many of whom may be disclosing the abuse they are experiencing to another person for the first time. 

In addition to empowering all people to live their best lives and have the safety to achieve their dreams, preventing violence can have a significant impact on the economic future of both potential victims and society as a whole. Our loveisrespect program engages, educates and empowers young people to prevent and end abusive relationships. loveisrespect is the first 24-hour resource for teens who are experiencing dating violence and abuse and is the only teen helpline serving all of the United States and its territories. 

According to the department of Health and Human Services, adolescents spend a substantial amount of time on media and communications activities. High school teens spend an average of 2.3 hours on these types of activities on a weekday and 4.3 hours per day on weekends. loveisrespect engages with young people on our website with interactive polls and quizzes and on social media. Any opportunity to influence positive self-image, self-care and healthy relationships on these platforms is crucial. loveisrespect has more than 42,000 followers on Facebook and 34,000 on Twitter. 

Domestic violence statistics are staggering, but that can change when we truly invest in prevention. Every dollar invested in prevention can empower someone’s future, remove the pain and barriers caused by domestic violence, and truly impact this societal issue once and for all. Thank you for your generous support. We have included some 2018 snapshots of those we served on the next page. We hope you have found this information helpful as you consider your 2019 support. 

On behalf of the National Domestic Violence Hotline—thank you for being a hero to all those we serve. You have invested in the most important thing of all—the belief that everyone deserves to live a life free from violence. 

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Sea Shepherd, Pamela Anderson and Green MP Lead Wild Salmon Flotilla


Join Sea Shepherd Conservation Society’s science research vessel Martin Sheen on a peaceful flotilla, as we venture north to Okisollo Channel in support of wild salmon.

Wild salmon populations of the Pacific Northwest are in critical decline due to the impact of open net-pen salmon farms along wild salmon migration routes. Sea Shepherd is working in collaboration with coastal First Nations, scientists, and marine wildlife experts to shine a spotlight on the devastating impacts of open net-pen feedlots through Operation Virus Hunter.


Date & Time:

Saturday, 27 July 2019 | 11AM – 5PM
Departing Discovery Harbour Marina at 12NN | Returning at 4PM

Sea Shepherd International Chair Pamela Anderson, Green Party MP Paul Manly, Hereditary Chief George Quocksister,  Sea Shepherd Campaigns Director Captain Locky MacLean and crew of R/V Martin Sheen will be attending.


We are asking participants to make signs/banners and invite their friends and family in support of wild salmon. Please practice safe boating by wearing a life jacket and adhering to safety precautions. You can also engage with us online by uploading images and joining the conversation by the using the hashtag #opvirushunter #protectwildsalmon

Empty the Tanks


Pamela Anderson has just one birthday wish: freedom for Corky, an orca who was captured five decades ago and currently lives in a cramped, chemically treated concrete tank at SeaWorld.

In her latest PETA campaign, Pamela puts herself in the place of Corky and other captive orcas, asking, “Could You Live in a Bathtub for Decades?” While the model and activist is a champion for all animals, she has a special affinity for Corky, who shares her age and was captured near her hometown of British Columbia.

Pamela also sent a letter to SeaWorld’s newly appointed CEO, Gustavo Antorcha, writing the following:

[Corky’s] always on my mind when my July 1 birthday approaches. She and I are the same age, but as a baby, she was torn away from her mother in the sea off British Columbia—right near where I grew up on Vancouver Island. I’m launching my new ad campaign for PETA in Corky’s honor. Please don’t let her die in a tank that, to her, is comparable to the size of a bathtub.

Corky was torn away from her family and sold into the entertainment industry in 1969. Since then, she has lived in a cramped, chemically treated tank and lost all seven of her babies. Her last pregnancy ended in a miscarriage, and her dead baby was found at the bottom of a tank. But her life could have a happy ending if she were released into a seaside sanctuary in her home waters, where she could feel the ocean currents and communicate with her brother and sister, Fife and Ripple, who are her only surviving family members and swim freely nearby.

In a video Q&A, Pamela urges her fans to avoid marine parks like SeaWorld and encourages children to learn about animals through harmless methods such as virtual reality. “We’ve been fighting against SeaWorld for a long time because obviously captivity is not something that anybody’s comfortable in, especially whales that swim a hundred miles a day,” she says in the video. “I can’t imagine a wild animal being happy in an enclosed environment.”

Orcas swim up to 140 miles a day in the wild. In order to swim that far in the largest tank at SeaWorld Orlando in Florida, an orca would need to do 4,280 laps! And they’re not the only marine mammals SeaWorld imprisons in concrete tanks for human entertainment. The park continues to cram 140 dolphins into just seven tanks, breeding them—sometimes forcibly after they’ve been drugged—and abusing them by allowing trainers to stand on their faces during circus-style performances. Their faces.

Pamela has spoken up for other marine mammals, asking Russian Federation President Vladimir Putin to call off his country’s plan to capture wild orcas and beluga whales from the Sea of Okhotsk and subject them to a lifetime of captivity. Following public pressure from Pamela and other celebrity activists, Russia agreed to release the nearly 100 orcas and beluga whales back into the wild and started releasing them in June 2019.

Letter to Gustavo Antorcha, CEO SeaWorld Entertainment, Inc.

Dear Mr. Antorcha,

As one of PETA's honorary directors, I'm writing to ask that you free Corky, an orca SeaWorld has held captive since 1987. She's always on my mind when my July 1 birthday approaches. She and I are the same age, but as a baby, she was torn away from her mother in the sea off British Columbia—right near where I grew up on Vancouver Island.

I'm launching my new ad campaign for PETA in Corky's honor. Please don't let her die in a tank that, to her, is comparable to the size of a bathtub. With your extensive experience at Carnival Cruise Line, you surely have an appreciation for the open ocean. Won't you allow Corky to go back where she belongs?

Corky's 49 years in captivity have been full of confusion, pain, and death. Kept almost constantly pregnant for a decade as part of a now-illegal captive-breeding program, she was inseminated seven times, six times by her own cousin, but none of her babies survived longer than 47 days. Her last baby was found floating at the bottom of her tank at SeaWorld.

Corky's brother and sister are still alive and flourishing in the wild, and a Canadian scientist who has been studying her family wants to bring her home. It's within your power to release this long- suffering orca to a seaside sanctuary in a protected bay of her home waters. There, she could dive to new depths, relearn natural behavior, and even communicate with her brother and sister, who often visit the adjacent Blackfish Sound. She'd have a taste of freedom, instead of dying in a concrete tank at SeaWorld like so many orcas before her.

There is global momentum for SeaWorld to create sea sanctuaries. The National Aquarium is retiring the dolphins it held captive to such a habitat, including one who was born at SeaWorld; beluga whales are being moved from a Chinese marine park to a sanctuary in Iceland; and Parliament in my native Canada just voted to ban dolphin and whale captivity outright. You have the opportunity to make SeaWorld a leader—rather than a resister—of the trend away from animal displays. I eagerly await your reply.

Very truly yours,

Pamela Anderson


C’est La Vie


Every time you lie. 


Know that lies 

kill parts of other people. 

Sometimes the whole person. 

You will suffer for every lie. 

So why ...
And commit to loving each other honestly. 

Why not. 

Love and stay alive in truth. 

No more wars between us 

Lies create wars. 

Respect women. 

Save the world. 

It feels better to be free 

of a sociopath - it feels better than being in love with one. 

His carefully worded response on IG -
(Not written by him) 

You can compare writing style to his texts below -

I’m sure this was written either by his sister, lawyer or team at futball club for « Damage control » 

His response -


Une rupture n'est jamais chose facile. Comme souvent dans ces situations, l'émotion peut prendre le dessus et laisser s'exprimer des choses excessives. Pamela est une personne entière, que je respecte profondément, qui a des convictions, qui est sincère dans ses combats, et pour qui mon amour a toujours été sincère. C'est ce que je veux retenir. 

Je ne pense pas que nous devrions dévoiler notre intimité, notre histoire, qui ne regarde que nous. Sur ce point, je tiens cependant à faire la lumière. En aucun cas je ne mene de double vie, je reste simplement attaché à préserver une relation pérenne avec mes enfants et leur mère Sidonie pour qui je garde un profond respect. C'est vrai j'aurais dû être plus transparent dans cette relation ambiguë. Je l'assume. 

Je reste et resterai fidèle à mes valeurs et aux convictions qui sont les miennes et s’expriment dans mon engagement pour l'association @solidaritefemmes , qui est toujours aussi fort. Je suis fier d'avoir participé à cette grande et belle campagne qui a pu faire connaître le travail exceptionnel de cette association et de ses membres.

Je souhaite l'apaisement et la discrétion pour nos familles et amis, même si je suis peiné et blessé.

J'espère que vous le comprendrez et le respecterez.


Decide for yourself. 

Decide if this man should be the face of violence against women in France.???(Organized by positive futball to help improve player images) 

He is perv narcissist 


Only cares for himself. 

Even in his post. 

He does not deny being abusive. 

He is only angry that people know. 

That public perception might change because they are enlightened. 

That he wished he could have continued to hurt, betray, lie, fuck who he wants and look macho to his sick friends. 

He thought he could get away with it. 

He is the face of a sociopath. 

Nothing caring or kind - 

he does not know what love is. He definitely doesn’t know how to love. 

He was never shown or taught - this was the part that kept me there. To help him somehow. 

He and all like him must be revealed. Brought into the light - 

don’t be afraid. 

Support others going through same thing 

No more abuse in the shadows. 

No more men who think they can destroy hearts and lives and can sleep peacefully while victims can’t sleep at all. 

Abuse should not be hidden. 

It is not personal business. It is an epidemic. 

And he only cares about his image and money. 

His family are sycophants 

- they only make money off him. 

They protect him. 

They enable the abusive men in their families. 

And they should be ashamed. 

The father. 

abandoned them - 

and has multiple wives. Didn’t the hurt in their mothers eyes make them try to change. 

It just fueled the fire. 

In the interest of true and actual transparency, I have chosen to...

Share the letters. 

1st letter ❤️

Hi S😘

This is Pamela - 

sorry to contact you this way. I tried to send you a message through my IG but maybe I’m blocked or — 

it doesn’t matter 

Zeus is my Dog. (Silly IG) 

You children love him. 

I have asked Adil (for over 2 years now) if I could meet you. 

Have coffee. 

I know what it’s like to be a single mom. And I was always friendly with my ex’s girlfriends or anyone near my children. 

It’s normal. 

But - 

if you are uncomfortable. 

I understand too 

If you ever need me please call 

Î’m in Paris a lot 

I have never wanted to come between you. 

I have always encouraged Adil to try to make things work if there was any chance. 

It’s been hard for me to think he is away from his family. 

Leaving my first husband was awful - 

I know it is incredibly painful. 

And - 

there will always be an important bond between you. 


The children 

are most important. 


Î’ve been able to help Adil in some ways grow up a little. 


such a bubble he lives in. 

Between us women sometimes we can make best sense of things. 

I have no secrets. 

I just had to reach out to you. 


see if you are ok. 

I prefer to be honest - 

he will be so angry I sent this. 

I also asked Feda for your number. 

But she said she’d ask you and Adil first. 

I don’t want to cause problems. 

Just I want to be helpful. 

I hope Adil will see his children more. 

And if you met me. 

You’d have more confidence. 

I raised 2 beautiful boys alone - no nanny - I was a warrior. 

Merci to read this 

I hope I’m not out of line. 

I wish you the best. 



1st Response 

Hi P😘

Really appreciate ur message, as a woman and as a mom.

Its true that, all that matters now are our kids. I just want them to feel good whether in Paris or Marseille.

What i dont understand at all... is what does Adil say to you??...

Just to be honnest :

We broke up in June (2016) -as every summer then we’d usually get back together- then i learnt in the press he met did my family and friends.

Quite shoked and sad.

Then for almost 1year and a half we continued to see each other as lovers, him being really discreet and telling me all would “end” soon ?

Then early 2019 we stopped the “affair” coz i think i worth more than being hidden and treated like that.

Again before his holidays he told me to watch carefully press as all would finally end, that he loved me loved us missed us being family.

But the Truth is, im over it.

I just need him as a Dad, being there for my babies.

Im really hurt and did a long therapy but seriously this man has a good heart but lying issues, and obvisouly self confidence troubles too He sweared kids never met you neither your dog.

Told me u never lived together

Told me all was political and he couldnt do anything

Then admited he screwed up and felt like an idiot.


Feel free to call me

Or meet me in Paris

and i do really wish you to be happy.


2nd letter 

Dear S😘

I’m so sorry. I’ve been living with Adil for over 2 years. I’ve never met a man like this. Living multiple lives. I’m in shock. 

I’m so sorry for you and your boys. 

I am leaving him. 

For good this time. 

It’s too mind boggling for me. 

I’ve tried to leave 10 times to leave 

but he always finds me and begs me back. 

He said you appear places without his permission like the Macron event recently. He said you were in NY on vacation. 

He always says you are out of town when he goes to Paris. 

All very juvenile. 

Narcissist actually. Nobody is perfect. Be he is frightening. 


I’m so happy 

to be in touch with you - it’s such a relief. 

Just so you can rest knowing the truth. 

I feel better too now. 

It hurts 

But it’s closure. 

He is definitely not worth any more heart ache. 

I’ll be in Paris this weekend. 

If you want to meet - 

just to clear the air. 

You have beautiful babies. 

I’ve met them - and you have done a great job alone. They are little gentlemen. I just wish I could speak better french. 

I don’t need to bore you with details - so many crazy things 

He has a big big problem with lying. 

And I never felt good about being with a man with 2 young twins. 

I couldn’t imagine how bad you could be to abandon you like that. 

But he reassured me that he loved me. Wanted to be married. ? Lord. 

Thank God 

that didn’t happen. 

You have to stay in his life. 

He is father of your sons. 

But you can be sure. 

I will never communicate or go near him again. 

Maybe you can find a way to heal together. ❤️

He has hurt me a lot - physically and mentally. 

I can’t more. 

It feels so good to hear you 

so I can move on 

from this terrible humiliating game. 

I wish you the best. 

I’m sorry if I caused any heart ache for you. 

You are a beautiful woman. 

Thank you for calling me back so soon. 



2nd response 

P 😘

.... i just cant believe what im reading right now.

yep no more details i think we know enough.

I just dont want him around anymore, or texting me.

He is such a Liar.

And i really feel so stupid i could once love him and “build” something with him.

Well i feel sorry for you i dont know what to say except thank you for reaching me out and being so nice thinking about our kids.

At least someone is acting like a grown up here..

You truly are a beautiful person from inside and outside.

Im in Paris all week so feel free to call me when you’re here.

You deserve the Best


Ps : I gave you a wrong date. He left home june 2017 -not 2016- prefering the glow of Cannes festival than being home with our babies sons (9 months old)

Then i saw your pix in the press few days after that.

So classy..

Just so you know, all the press you did together, everything, he told me you were doing it but that he didnt want because you were just “friends”. 

Every picture he could explain me with a lie or being agressive.

And the Dancing with the Stars video... he told me your team forced him to do it.

All political and press communication.

I am so dumb i trusted that i admit.

I asked him few months ago :

Can we please end our affair?

Can you please tell me you re dating her, you re in love, you’re happy,you will introduce her to our kids? 

So that i can finally move on!

He said

The only thing i can tell you for sure :

Im unhappy.


3rd letter 


I can’t imagine 

how you feel 

He can be very manipulative 

I hope 

he’s never hurt you physically 

Thé mental abuse 

is just as bad. 

I wonder if meeting would help either of us. ? Or hurt us more ? 

I feel your pain 

I don’t know that you want to hear more details. 

It breaks my heart that his family covered for him too. 

They act like my friends. 

Probably they act like yours too - 

they are complicit. 

They cover for Samir too 

who has beaten women bloody. I have seen photos. 

Maybe he’s even enjoying this - 

that’s what sick men do. 

The attention. 

The adrenaline of hurting people excites them. To think 2 women love them. 

My God it’s a joke 

Maybe his friends think this is cool. France is new to me. He might even look like a hero to some people he knows.

Just so you know. 

After we met in Monaco end of May/2017 We have spent every night/day/sieste together since 

unless I was working out town. 

We stayed one month in Aix en Provence at hotel piggonet 

and one month at hotel intercontinental -

We bought a house in marseille. 

I refurnished and decorated last year. 

I even decorated boys room. 

I paid for all. 

World Cup 

He flew me to Russia for 2 weeks with his family. 

I was not allowed to ever meet player wives. 

He said they are all trash/bitch/bimbos and were beneath me. 

I always told him. 

I’m a big girl. 

I meet many people. 

It’s not up to him who’s good for me or not. 

He refused. 

So he got a private lodge for me and his sister joined me there. 

I was too sick to come to final. I stayed in hotel and watched on TV in Moscow. 

I flew direct to LA from Moscow. He and his family said if I went to Paris that’s all press would talk about and this was his moment. (That’s what they said about last event too) never wanting me to outshine him. Or distract. 

And I never wanted to do DALS. I was bullied into it to make people commission. Adil did vidéo very happily and was at show many times. Just hiding in my dressing room. 

He has always been extremely jealous. 


Making me video everything everyone around me. 

Never trusting me. 

Cutting my friends out of my life, 

people they worked got me. 

He isolated me so I could talk to no one. 

Accused me with being with mens? 

He said I could not drink without him. 

It was prison. 

It was like nothing I’ve ever seen. 

It changed me too. I’m not a jealous person. But I couldn’t dream up what he was doing - he taught me not to trust. At least now I know I’m not crazy. 

Hé showered me with presents. 

Clothes, jewelry - hotels, romantic trips - he gave me 

2 carrier rings 

saying he wants to be married with me. Ask my father etc. 

I had a hard time wearing these rings. 

I just couldn’t. 

Now I know why. 

I never accepted his proposals. 

I told him each time I left him 

that I needed to speak to you before going any further. 

That it was important for everyone. Most importantly the kids. 

Sometimes he’d agree just to get me back. 

But then changed his mind 

He said I was sick and needed a Dr. 

He was very cruel to me at times. 

He threw me around by my hair in LA last summer. 

Because I left him 

to go to hotel after a photoshoot with friends. . 

I didn’t want to stay with him longer with his friends in a house in Hollywood. 

They partied every night leaving me at home. 

The summer before he chased me all over LA and in St Tropez - this summer was the worst. 

He crushed both my hands 

I needed to go to hospital (6 months after) because I was in so much pain. I couldn’t write it open a water bottle. 

They need to put me to sleep to do injections. 

my hands were getting better 

but he hurt me again 

at mandarine hôtel. 

When he got so angry with me 

for asking why I was to wait in room and pack our clothes 

while you were at the Macron event in hotel with the players families. 

He said 

he doesn’t know how you got in. 

I know he was with the boys, his mom, Feda and Nou Nou ?

They visited me in the room that day and wanted me to come to aquarium with them. 

In their little white hats. 

It’s endless. 

We could drive each other crazy. 

I’m sure there were many more women. 

He has no respect for women. The fact that he’s face of domestic violence in France was a proactive move only for his image. 

I hope you are strong enough to set new boundaries. 

IF you are like me. It’s difficult - I understand - I forgive easily. and it’s raw. 

He will try anything now. 

It’s Shocking. 

I am very hurt. 

He showed up at my hotel today. I was at breakfast with my son -

I had to have security remove him. 

. He was begging for 5 minutes. 

And he sent flowers. 

I did not accept. 

He’s written me long (for him) letters. Saying he’ll die without me. 

I was right. 

He was wrong. 

This is first time I’ve had the « evidence » I needed to move on. 

I don’t need him like you do. 

I feel for you. 

I’m worried -

He is sick. 

A narcissist cannot change Î’m told. 

To lie this long. Over 2 years? 

To hurt us 

and our children 

our families. 

Is sociopathic. 

He is dangerous. 

I am afraid of him. 

I’ve had a big life. 

I know crazy wild interesting people. Artists. 

But never a mythoman like this. 

This is the worst character. 

A liar. 

Protect yourself, 

your boys and be well. 

Again I’m sorry. 

He’s not worth another thought. 

There are good men in the world. 

Don’t stop to trust. 

Don’t let him make you bitter. 

Then he wins. 

And we both know that’s all he cares about. 

Take care. 


Final response 

dear P😘

how i feel today?

Betrayed, ashamed, shaking too, crying.

Can t stop thinking over and over again about every details.

we ve been together for 6 years.

Cool at first but always hiding his mobiles, having no names on numbers coz he was “lazy” to do it.

I ve seen already some chats he did with instagram girls or on twitter etc.

I decided to forgive.

Being over jealous making me quit my tv job and telling one by one my friends were bad influence.

Then every summer we would split so he could do whatever he wanted and being back home with a hug and a present.

From very begining of January 2017 he was acting weird, being scared of his new dad duties, always escaping to South of france, not declaring our babies to City Hall etc etc.

Then he slowly talked to me that “eventually” he would sign up to Marseille but i was forbidden to live there!

I was like ok its a dangerous city but where are we supposed to live then?

No answer

Then slowly going out more, being rude and mean.

Then he left for holidays on June 2017.

Taking in front of us all his clothes and stuff.

He was helped by Samir.

Babies and I were shocked watching them moving the suitcases like they were in a rush.

I waited for 2h then called him and said ok you left again

This time its over.

He said Ok! As all was planned already.

Then..... i saw the Voici press of you 2.

I was alone in Spain with the boys and he was laughing over the phone “so what you dumped me im free now haha”.

I spent the worst summer ever

Moving back all our Spanish house to Paris having to face my family and announce the big break up.

Then life began again, i started working again, being surrounded with my closest friends feeling good.

And he kept calling asking who i was with

Being crazy jealous about me going out again and dating other men in Paris or Dubai.

He said to me last month that he did the spanish cover with you to hurt me as i told him ive met a smart and nice man and was willing to move over us.

Then he warmly invited us to World cup

That same day he calls me back saying we re no more welcome.

Feda told me you made him do that as you didnt want see the kids and I there or you would kill him in French press.

All the press you did together, he lied to me.

At 1st it was easy coz he barely never talked in interviews and the pictures were nice so he would say yes she s a friend yes she s crazy about me but as i respect you i dont do anything bad with her

Then it became more and more press.

He finally told me to meet him last september in Gare de Lyon before going back to Marseille because he couldnt forget me and needed to talk to me quickly and explain many things.

There he said all was like a contract he couldnt talk about, i just had to be patient and all would be “cleared” and we d be back together.

From september 2017 to this early 2019 we had sex.

Every time he was in Paris, enjoying it and having naps and ordering food home but of course he had an hotel booked and only spent the night once.

One day he told me “this is bad, i cant promise you anything im so lost”

I was like : about what? Who? Are u dating Pamela?

no answer

For his birthday, the boys wanted to facetime and sing. He refused the call.

I read you were in Megeve then he got angry to get caught and said this was photoshopped he was not reality.

Dancing with the Stars he promised me never to show up on stage as you were just “friends” and said your team was really oppresive and forced him to do the video.

About this recent Macron event

I said i was back from ny and he told me to come to the hotel to pick up the kids but as i remember now he told me to stay upstairs not in lobby.hidden. Seeing no one.

In the hotel room at this event

He told me:

I love you i miss you i miss the kids

I ve been acted as a jerk im an idiot.

Im gonna clean my mess i promise give me time, let me go on holidays and you ll see.

We re so good together.

The only time i was doubting his words were last event you showed up together for football.

I was so sad for the kids because the event is only 10mn from home and he didnt even say hello to them.

Then i said, how come you re outside together are u f****** dating her tell me the TRUTH

he said no

He messed up

Being in an engrenage not knowing how to get rid of it.

All this time i thought as he told me all this was just press,

Virtual life so you could have visibility back here in France and that he was helping you out this way.

Never i thought he was like how you ve described him.

Hurting you?

And being an ambassador for abused women?......

Right now

I just want to heal

Away from him.

His sister talked to me today.

For sure they are all protecting him and now they call me and say your manipulative and bi polar.

I just feel you as a nice and sincere person.

I just dont want to see or hear Adil again.

Never mind for my kids

He s too dangerous.

Ah and yes

Other girls.

You were the Official

I was the official maitresse

And he had some instagram girls he d invite to soccer or other places and lying to me it wasnt true.

When you re in love and you want to BELIEVE you can definitively shut your ears and mind.

I ll get over it, you will too.

No one deserves such a fool, crazy, mentally instable person around like him.

He s just like his dad actually.

For sure meeting together would make it worse as you’ll cry and i’ll cry too.

I just wish you the best

And i do respect the fact that 1st you raised your boys alone, and 2nd you were smart and classy enough to talk to me 1st before going any further.

Take care



Pamela post on IG 

It’s hard to accept 💔😘

The last (more than) 2.years of my life have been a big lie. 

I was scammed,

led to believe ... 

we were in « big love »?. 

I’m devastated

to find out in the last few days. 

That he was living a double life. 

He used to joke about other players 

who had girlfriends down the street in apartments close to their wives. 

He called those men monsters. ?

But this is worse. He lied to all. 

How is it possible 

to control 2 women’s hearts and minds like this - for so long. 

I’m sure there were others. 

He is the monster. 

How could I have helped so many people @ndvhofficial 

and not be wise enough or able to help myself. 

I don’t think Î’ll recover easily from this. 

I am not a stupid girl. 

I felt many times his lies, 

his excuses. 


we were together every day - 

unless I went away to work. 

This was always hard 

because he did not trust me? 

He was very insecure? 

He wanted me next to him always - 

or vidéo every location I was?, 

with who? 

I learned to accept this as normal. 

And even found myself asking him the same ridiculous questions? 


He wanted to marry me? 

Meet my father. 

Love me for life? 

Î’m devastated after talking to his ex girlfriend. 

Poor woman. 

The mother of his young sons. 

I never felt good about dating someone with young babies. 

I wanted to know what happened. - 

How could he leave them alone? 

Why were they apart? 

He wouldn’t talk about it. 

I did all to encourage their reunion. 

He told me it was impossible. 

That even if he was not with me they would not be together. 


But they were .. 

I feel worse for her, for them. 

His family even lies for him. 

I feel used. 

Betrayed and hurt. 

But I should’ve known better. 

The jealousy. 

The physical 

and emotional torture. 

It was all a mirror of his own actions. 

I did try to leave 10 times. 

Every time he chased me to say he’d die without me. 

He’d go to therapy. 

He wouldn’t hurt me again. 

He wanted us to live in Malibu one day. 

I even emailed my friend who owns LA team for him for next year. Like 

he asked me to . 


I introduced him to my good friends - 

He trained in Malibu with people I admire and trust. . 

I was happy to see him there. 

He seemed happy around dedicated honest people. 

Another world. 

Well we are all in shock. 

He has disappointed us all. 

My family.

My sons. 

My friends. 

Some knew all along. 

David Lachapelle told me from the beginning that he was a liar.

That he was not to be trusted. 

He told him to his face and looked at me and said.Pamela this is a fling. 

Don’t get your heart involved.

I didn’t listen . 

I was not allowed to see David more after this. 

He cut my ‘crazy’ friends one by one out of my life. 


I will leave France now. 

He has tried all - 

He has sent flowers 

letters - 

I did not accept. 

He showed up to my hotel. 

Security took him away. 

I have a body guard 

because he scares me. 

He has hurt me 

and threatened me many times. 


He should not be the face 

of protecting women from domestic violence. 

Or protecting women at all. 

He did this to improve image- only. 

He has no respect for any woman but his mother. 

And he lies to her too - they all lie. 

It’s very painful. 

I’m so so sad. 

I will feel my feelings and move on. 


He asks me to post photos of him on my Instagram? 

He begged me to do while he was in NY with his guy friends on holiday. 


I waited in our house in Marseille. 

We were to meet in Paris yesterday - we rented a house in Cassis so we could enjoy the beach with my dog 

and he’d train and prepare for new season 


Î’m glad I spoke to his ex. 

My God. 

He lied to her about all too. 

She’s also in shock and is very sad. 

It’s the evidence I needed to move on. 

He can’t hurt us more. 

He warned me that all the tabloids in France are his and his sisters friends?

They control all - 

So my last note is here 

on Instagram. 


Narcissists don’t change. 

Sociopaths don’t change. 

I will run for my life 

- I have always fought for truth and justice. - 

this is my worst nightmare - 

I was not a very jealous person 

before I met him. 

I’m happy to know the truth. 


it hurts like hell. 


Adil response on text to P before being blocked 

After continued to email and call from other numbers all day and night and showed up at hotel - to be removed physically. 


When he crushed my hands especially my right one till they cracked. It took me 6 months to go to Dr -

I told them it felt like arthritis (so this is what they put down) - (I couldn’t say he hurt me to the dr) though I did tell his sister and the concierge to Olympic De Marseille who took me what really happened. The sister just told me to be patient. That he was changing. 

I could not write or open a water bottle without pain. 

He would hurt me in ways you couldn’t see. Grabbing me roughly - intimidating, holding me with his physical strength. Not letting me leave. Taking keys from me In car not letting me move. 

The lies were only a small part of his controlling tactics. I was not « allowed «  to be anywhere men are. Of course impossible. So he was always angry - I had to vidéo all around me - always, cars , hotel rooms, dinner tables, still nothing was ever enough. While he carried on. Now my feelings are confirmed. People that are extremely jealous are usually the ones being unfaithful. 

Now he’s actually denying any abuse. ?

Maybe he doesn’t understand what abuse is. 

It’s not my intention to hurt him. 

He still is only angry that people know. 

Not upset that he did anything wrong. 

He says he forgives me for posting ?

It’s the only way to get on the record. While he was definitely plotting - asking me to post photos of him.

To say I miss him ?

While ramping up appearing as victim. 


threatened to break my legs last week. - and then would say. 


I don’t hit women. You are lucky. 

He has no clue about what domestic violence is. He seems to not care that emotional abuse is violence too.

He said only wanted to fight for the women -« who were killed 

because they didn’t cook well enough » not the ones who deserve it.

I tried to tell him it was too late when they are dead. 

That it must start with respect. Encouraging respect would be helpful. And starts be being respectful. 

And that if he respected the women in his life - 

it would help him when trying to help others. 

I thought he’d learn from the association.

I never betrayed him. 

It’s not difficult to be nice and honest. Or just not be in a relationship. 

I don’t know how he kept his lies straight and play soccer. 

While he thought he had all his stories straight and everyone loved him. 

It all imploded. 

The truth is always revealed. 

« Ambiguous «  or not. 

He has still explained nothing while calling from multiple numbers and emailing me daily many times. I’ve had to block him and now change my number/email. Now he’s DM’ing my dog.

He wants me to return to France so we can talk and he said he has proof of all. ? Of what? 

No thanks 🙏 

He’s finally agreed to give my belongings back -

And Zuzu is safe with a friend getting ready to fly back home to me.

It doesn’t feel sexy 

to be cheated on. 

I don’t think it makes me 

more attractive - but 

he is a sex addict, 


There was no way around his insecurities. He lied to the pool man, 

his teammates, 

the coach,, 

his sister. 

How could I think he wouldn’t lie to me. 

A compulsive liar 

with zero remorse. 

He only acted the way he wanted 

to get what he wanted. 

To manipulate and control all. 

He wanted to “marry me” - 

he talked about it all the time. 

He wanted to move and work in LA next year. 

Lord help me -

It was Hell as it is- 

I’m sure he 

had multiple relationships, 

hook ups .. 

with who knows -  

He just didn’t care - 

and he thought he was invincible. 

Soccer teams have damage control departments - 

They are used to cleaning up messes. 

These guys are too rich 

and too young 

to not make mistakes.  

They are property 

they are protected -

and that means the people they hurt aren’t. 


I have NO regrets about exposing him. 

I encourage everyone 

to at least to get it out 

and to share experiences. 

to speak their truth and not be afraid to come forward. 

It can be intimidating 


you must be brave 

and not be forced to comply 

in secrecy and fear.

You can say what you want,

it’s your life too. 

(As long as it’s the truth!)

We really had nothing in common. 

I would read 

while he played PlayStation 

He didn’t understand me 

as an activist - 

I could never talk to him 

about important things -

There was a language barrier 

and an education barrier. 

We want to see the best in people, 

the potential in people. . 

The cat and mouse game 

seems fun for awhile. 


it’s not healthy for too long. 

I just cringe at how many times 

I almost escaped him -

then allowed him to pull me back in 

with his crocodile tears, 

throwing me over his shoulder 

or a promise a willingness to learn and change. 

I have 2 sons. 

I know that men need 2,3,4 or more chances. 

We all do- 


we are worth it. 

The good thing is 

he’s not in my life more. 

I hope he can be a better father 

to his boys. 

Maybe they can heal their family. 


from what I’ve heard. 

He’s done this to her 

for all the years they were together. 


he’s her bread and butter. 

3 nannies, 

private school all day long 

every day for 3 year olds 

is expensive 

and ridiculous. 

Not sure of anyone’s intentions. 

It all seems to revolve 

around money. 

He doesn’t know who to trust. 

I think part of the problem is his family, 

his friends 

and definitely 

too many balls to the head? 

I hope he learns 

or he’ll end up old, fat, broke 

sleeping on his mothers couch 

playing video games 

ordering Uber eat for life -

like some of his friends. 

No woman of self worth will tolerate his infidelity,

his indecency - 

his physical abuse. 

I tried to leave many times 

But even in the worst times 

I couldn’t get away from him. 

The only way to calm him down 

was to apologize and stay - 

do what he wants 

to make him stop being angry. 


He was drunk after another night out 

with French players in LA - 

after the World Cup. 

Strip Clubs, 

Vegas, prostitutes,

pool parties, 

while he left me alone in the house 

he rented with friends. 

I lost interest. 

I gave up - 

I didn’t want to be with him anymore. 


He doesn’t give up. 

He came to my hotel at 3amDrunk (Chateau Marmont) 

He was angry after all his partying 

that I had friends over 

after a photo shoot 

and I planned to stay there. 

He threw me into walls by my hair. 

He was screaming, crying, calling me names 

and breaking things. 

He took my phone - 

and went through it 

texting my friends 

and he was also on his phone texting 

with who knows.

He texted my friends and people that worked for me  

That he’d kill them 

or fuck them depending on who 

or what phone. 

He even said 

he was texting his Ex. . 

He threatened to send “teams” after people that worked for me. 

He tried to destroy my assistants career and reputation in France 

Just so I had no friends - 

He wanted me isolated. 

So I couldn’t find out what he was doing. 

He wanted me in the house with him 

and not leave. 

I had to accept all he did. 

He could go to ‘the gym’ 3 times a day. 

His lies were so twisted. 

He would yell at me saying he was going to fuck all of LA,

then Paris. 😳

He said 

That every “stupid bitch” wanted to fuck him. 

I’d just say ‘congratulations’ 

I mean - 

what can you say to that?

I’m happy I was always faithful even under the circumstances. 

I could not and would not do anything to hurt or disrespect him. 

I’ve never cheated - 

The worst characteristic to me is a Lying -It’s the beginning of abuse 

and doesn’t end there. 

It’s unforgivable. 

I’m so blessed 

to have lived through this. 

I know it has made me stronger. 

Like everything in life. 

Another art project - 

Life is performance art. 

God doesn’t give you 

what you can’t handle. 

I’m sad for his career to end this way. 

With such a stain on his character. 

It’s his destiny though. 

I have asked that all my belongings 

at our  house be donated to a woman’s shelter-  maybe or can recommend a good place. 

A lot of furniture including the baby furniture I purchased 

that his kids have outgrown by now. 

He also had a huge painting made of my face that he kept by the bedroom 

It could be auctioned by the artist and donated. I don’t like photos of myself in my home - I’m sure he doesn’t want it -

It’s not difficult to be kind, 

gentle and honest 

- but greed 

and macho can get in the way-

Fame can stunt growth 

or make you grow up too fast -

I am an open book. 

I will keep writing 

and live my life as I always do. 

Maybe it helps somebody 


I know 

I’m a bit crazy - 

Maybe some don’t want to read this. 

but I’m sure someone can relate 

and doesn’t feel so alone. 


it’s worth it to me 

to share with 

whoever that is. 

Los Angeles Times - Pamela Anderson opens up about Julian Assange, veganism and #MeToo

Brandon Thomas Lee and his mother, Pamela Anderson, stop for photos as they arrive last month for amfAR's 26th Cinema Against AIDS gala at the Hotel du Cap-Eden-Roc in Cap d'Antibes in France. (Alberto Pizzoli / AFP / Getty Images)

Brandon Thomas Lee and his mother, Pamela Anderson, stop for photos as they arrive last month for amfAR's 26th Cinema Against AIDS gala at the Hotel du Cap-Eden-Roc in Cap d'Antibes in France. (Alberto Pizzoli / AFP / Getty Images)

What’s it like to be back in Los Angeles?

I’m not a big L.A. fan. I’m more a Malibu girl. You can be in Malibu and never see L.A. I love being at the beach. Even in France, I feel the same way about Paris. I prefer Cassis. I need to have one foot in the water — or I feel claustrophobic.

Your series “Baywatch” was made in Malibu. When you’re in town, what memories from the series come to mind?

I see my tower every time I go home — Tower 14, the same one from the series!

How did you get involved with photographer David Yarrow for this exhibition?

I love that he shoots animals in their natural habitats. I was a fan of his for years when he worked with Cindy Crawford and raised a lot of money for charity. He asked me to shoot a photo for him, and all the proceeds will go to my foundation. How could I say no?

Your foundation has been around for 20 years. What are some of your achievements as an activist? What have you been working on recently?

We’ve created animal welfare laws where there were none in many countries. I’ve noticed that when I speak with world leaders, things get done. Even [Russian President Vladimir] Putin stopped importing seal products, so that pretty much stopped the Canadian seal hunt. And so many things that I’ve done with PETA.

Lately, I have been working with my friends in Germany [on] DiEM25, which is a green political movement. We’re trying to get some seats in the European Parliament. I have been speaking at universities. I love to see the emerging of young, really forward-thinking people that are trying to change the E.U. and create democracy in Europe.

Everything is incredibly crazy right now. It’s a very strange world we’re living in. This is why I’ve created a new offshoot of my foundation called Tenure, [based on the principles of an academic tenure,] where I take 10 activists and pay their salaries for a year. Because people that are activists … will care about everything. They don’t just care about one little thing. Animal activists like Paul Watson, for instance — even if the sea dried up, he would fight for something else. So I want to encourage people to be career activists.

Even though activists are getting a bad name and certain governments are afraid of them and investigative journalism, we have to really support the people that are sticking their necks out.

The money that I raise will go to activists risking their lives — anywhere from freedom of speech to people on a boat saving the whales, like Sea Shepherd. I love people that are in the mix. They are not just talking about it, they are warriors. I’m really good at giving money to people who can make an entire initiative out of 5,000 euros/dollars. I also sponsor a lot of first responders.

There are so many things in France I’m doing against animals and circuses. … I have a campaign coming out about anti-Marineland and anti-Sea World, so people [won’t] go to these places.

Do you find it difficult to be taken seriously in your activist efforts because people associate you with your background as an actress?

Even other activists tell me to ‘Be careful. Don’t wear that. Don’t do this because they need it to be taken seriously, and people need to listen to what you’re saying.’ And I say, ‘No, I am who I am.’ Sorry. I don’t want to apologize every day or have to explain to people that I can form a full sentence or give my track record.

But I also get into places where it’s unexpected. I reach an audience that’s important. I have a lot of friends who are intellectuals, but they are preaching to the choir. Whereas, I feel like I need to simplify things and can share the same message but in more of a fun way. Because sometimes activists can be annoying! It’s sexy being an activist and it’s a romantic struggle. I like to encourage people to be engaged in the world.

You have been working to get WikiLeaks founder Julian Assange out of jail. What will that take?

A lot of public support. We really have to get him out of jail. He can’t be extradited to America. They are doing everything they can to destroy his reputation, so people don’t support him. If you see people throughout history, that’s what they do.

Keeping him in the public eye is really important, so he doesn’t get killed. But being alive and in prison — Belmarsh prison is not an easy life — he’s never committed a violent act in his life. He’s very calm, very centered. I really encourage people to look at some of his speeches and the things he talks about. He’s very, very smart and very passionate about justice.

And he’s going to keep doing what he’s doing. He knew he was going to be in danger. Julian told me everything that happened and what was going to happen. It was just a matter of time. So now he needs public outcry — and especially from journalists. It’s crazy the brainwashing that’s gone on and the egos involved. We have to get him out of there for sure.

What are your thoughts on the #MeToo movement and how it has evolved?

There’s good things about it, but as I always say, ‘Action is stronger than a hashtag.” Feminism, for 50 years, gave us a voice. … We’re allowed to be able to talk about the abuse in our lives and we have to take action in the moment. We also have to be careful about destroying lives, like Julian, for instance. I have two boys, so I’m always worried about paralyzing them too.

We still want them to be men, to be chivalrous. We don’t want to be too crazy. This third-wave feminism, I’m not really a fan of that, but I am a feminist. I believe in all the good things that feminism has. But I am going to write a fourth book called ‘Saving Feminism From Feminists.’ I’m working on it.

You’re vegan, right?

Yes, we all have to evolve our habits. You just have to. I think it’s best for the environment. I was vegan for compassionate reasons and then I realized the health benefits. Obviously, it’s all connected to the environment and water and poverty and world hunger. There are so many good things about it. You’re really making a statement if you’re vegan.

Are you going to produce more vegan shoewear?

I’m doing another line. I’m actually opening in Galerie Lafayette doing vegan bags, vegan shoes, vegan Champagne and all sorts of vegan products — mostly with small groups because I want to encourage them as artists as well.

The artists are the freedom fighters of the world. That’s why I love to do it. If I have to do a fundraiser, I’d rather be with artists. They are more courageous when they are supporting an activist like me because I have a lot of friends who are, maybe, a little bit controversial.


Pamela Anderson’s French Evolution


Playboy cover star, Baywatch icon, blond bombshell. But there’s much more to PAMELA ANDERSON: passionate, uncompromising activist, shy poet and hopeful romantic. Now settled in the South of France, she talks to VASSI CHAMBERLAIN about Hefner, the Hoff, new love and happiness on the Côte d’Azur

Photography Cedric Buchet - Styling Maya Zepinic

Pamela Anderson greets me on the steps of her house in Provence holding a large glass of rosé on ice. “Would you like one?” she asks, smiling cutely. “We are in the South of France after all.” I shouldn’t, I say, it’s 3pm, I’m meant to be working. Anderson immediately discards the wine and leads me to a table in the all-white sitting room overlooking a swimming pool. “I prepared this for you,” she says, gesturing shyly towards the hipster-café spread of vegan baked goods and fruit, artfully arranged on a wooden board. Zeus, her golden retriever, hovers nearby. The combination of the heat, cake, boobs and all this cuteness is, well, how to put it – sexy. I should have accepted the rosé.

The Baywatch star and 14-time Playboy cover girl (a record, she will tell me later, she is very proud of) is wearing a three-quarter length, blue polka-dot cotton slip. “It’s from Mango, just a little thing,” she says, flushing prettily. Her brown arms are slim and smooth, her tummy flat, her pedicured feet bare. The famous bosom, the size of which has fluctuated over the years, is hidden under her dress but its magnificence is inescapable, like a famous national monument undergoing renovation. Her shoulder-length hair is still wet and wavy from the shower, and apart from winged black eyeliner, she is wearing little makeup. She looks utterly ravishing, and so much younger than her 51 years. Only her eyebrows – tattooed symmetrical arches, devoid of hair – seem artificial. But when you couple it all with a Euro-French undertone in her little-girl voice, it makes for quite an arresting package. One can only wonder what the residents of the small Provençal village of Cassis (she pronounces it as the locals do, the final ‘s’ silent) must make of the racy American, pottering about Bardot-like with her little straw basket on market days.


For the past two years, the passionate animal activist and eco-pioneer (she launched the Pamela Anderson Foundation 20 years ago) has been in an on/off relationship with the Moroccan footballer Adil Rami, 33, who plays for Marseille – hence her “rebellious and brave” move to France. He may have been a means to an end, a romantic dream she always wanted to fulfill, although it’s unclear who attracted her most – man or country. “I fell in love with Saint-Tropez 20 years ago, when I did a photoshoot for Playboy. It was always my plan to come and live here when the kids were grown up,” she says. “Everyone is so beautiful here. Maybe it’s the light, very healthy and golden.” Or maybe, after years of intrusion, she’s learnt the art of obfuscation.

The story of her life reads like a treatise on fame – a Homeric tale of epic voyages (both real and metaphorical), battles lost and then won (ditto), and especially romances fought (very real). Even though she occupies a symbolic place in the collective consciousness, she has never spoken much about her early years growing up on Vancouver Island in Canada. “I will never do a movie about my life,” she says, “because I don’t remember all of it.” This sounds funny at first, but throughout our conversation she will allude to, but not expand on, past struggles. She describes young Pamela as bookish (she read fairy tales and mythological stories with her grandfather and was an early adopter of Carl Jung). She was also devilish and always up to no good. “I couldn’t wait for everyone to be asleep,” she says. “I would wake up at 3am, go to the kitchen and concoct a mix of butter and spices and then I would rub it all over my cat and put her in the oven. But I couldn’t turn it on, thank God! This is not going to go down well with my activism friends, but I was little.”

I fell in love with Saint-Tropez 20 years ago, when I did a photoshoot here. It was always my plan to come and live here when the kids were grown up. Everyone is so beautiful here. Maybe it’s the light, very healthy and golden

Her parents, who married at 17 and who, she says, are still madly in love, didn’t have much money – her mother was a waitress; her father a chimney sweep – and lived in a little cabin on the beach. When they weren’t at work, they would play cards. “I ended up dealing for them a lot. And getting the beer. They would always joke, ‘I’ll time you!’ I was like the hostess and the dealer.” She never thought she’d leave Vancouver – in fact, she subsequently bought the small nearby island where her parents and all their friends were married. “They’re all still together.” Pause. “Maybe I should have got married on that island, too. No, wait, I’m still waiting for the one. When I get married there, then I’ll know.” She looks towards the pool. “No, I don’t know, we’ll see… I can’t believe I’m the age I am. I keep thinking I have so much time, but I don’t.”

Anderson was discovered in 1989 at a Canadian Football League game when the camera panned in on the 21-year-old wearing a blue T-shirt emblazoned with the Labatt’s beer logo. The crowd went wild. In the days before social media and ‘going viral’ was a thing, word spread fast about the Canadian beauty and, within a year, Playboy had tracked her down. At first, she said no, then she relented. All she had to do was get into America.

She had never been abroad before, let alone on a plane. “I was terrified,” she says. She was stopped before she could even board because she didn’t have a work permit, only a letter from Playboy. So, she ran to the airport bathroom, changed her outfit and approached a different airline counter. “They caught me there, too,” she says. She was told they wouldn’t allow her through unless she had the proper paperwork. While the Playboy execs worked on that, the impatient and enterprising young model jumped on a bus to Seattle. “They didn’t check me at the border, so I got into America. And I did my first Playboy cover.”


Los Angeles was a very different experience to the one she had left in small-town Canada. “I arrived during Gay Pride. I remember calling home and being very naive and saying, ‘Mom, not only do gay people exist, but they walk around holding hands wearing hot-pink shorts, handcuffed together with all this makeup on and these big wigs.’ My mother thought this sounded fantastic.” Anderson had been invited to stay at the Playboy Mansion but chose to check in to a hotel instead. She remembers her joy at catching sight of her first celebrity, Shirley MacLaine, whose book, Out On A Limb, she happened to be reading.

“You know, my university was Playboy,” she says of the magazine that, back in the day, was probably more difficult to get into than Harvard. “I met some of the most amazing philanthropists, artists and musicians at the mansion. It was very chic.” Chic? “Obviously, it was,” she says, nodding, wide-eyed. “There were moments where I guess it was a little racy, but it was chic, it was elegant… I mean, only Hefner could get away with this because it wasn’t exploitative or weird. I call reality TV exploitative. But Playboy? We all wanted to be there.” Did Hefner ever behave inappropriately with any of the girls? She shakes her head. “No. He was a true gentleman. He behaved with chivalry. People had that joke – ‘I read Playboy for the articles’ – but it was true. And he was a great human-rights activist, too. He put everybody up there, like Sammy Davis Jr., you know, the first black comics appeared in his clubs and he did so much for so many people.”

I shouldn’t have done anything to my body, I can’t take it back, but I had a cute little body. It was just the time, and I did it. I did not put a lot of thought into it. It became a little bit cartoonish later on

She has never forgotten her first nude cover story. “They had to capture it with the first roll of film because I felt so nauseous – a girl had touched my boob.” Just as I am about to say, “Isn’t that what’s meant to happen,” she puts her hand on herself to show me. The girl, it turns out, was just trying to help her ‘adjust’ her embonpoint. “I thought, ‘Ah, OK, that’s what it is.’” Is that what prompted her to have plastic surgery? “Well, I shouldn’t really have done anything to my body, I can’t take it back, but I had a cute little body when I came to Los Angeles. Then I asked, ‘How do these women have these bodies?’ And they told me, and I said, ‘That’s not fair. I want to do this, too. Where do I sign up?’ And it was just the time, you know, and I did it. I did not put a lot of thought into it. I know it became a little bit cartoonish later on. My grandmother was always concerned; she’d say, ‘Pamela, what are you doing?’”

Hugh Hefner always told her she was the DNA of Playboy. “He said a girl like me was the reason he made the magazine. He gave me the highest compliment. And he didn’t want to end Playboy – I did the last issue that was nude. They’ve gone back to nudes now, but he said he wanted it to have started with Marilyn and ended with me.” When she starts describing Monroe, who she bears an uncanny resemblance to, both in manner and physically, it’s almost as if she is describing herself. “Marilyn was very smart, very sincere, she was also very wise about her sensuality; her vulnerability was sexy and people responded to that. So with this really manufactured sexiness now…it’s different. Today, everything is so abrasive. It’s more exposed, everyone’s a celebrity; everyone can be, you know, on Instagram, and to value yourself on how many followers you have is really out of control.”

It’s no accident Anderson became a somebody. If her fame was initially underpinned and hoisted aloft by her looks and body, she also possessed the right qualities to make it – balls, naivety, a little of both, probably, and brains and charm, too – and was able to translate it into a TV career, something I can’t imagine would be possible today. Her first role was on US sitcom Home Improvement, then came Baywatch, the show that propelled her to stardom, infamy and her position today as a beloved cultural icon. She has also starred in several movies, most memorably in 1996’s Barb Wire (she famously had a tattoo of a wire wound around her upper arm), and appeared in Sacha Baron Cohen’s Borat in 2006, which gives her the right to say she was in a Golden Globe- and Oscar-nominated movie, and has also taken part in various reality-TV shows, such as Dancing with the Stars.

Her romantic life, from the outside at least, has always looked like a bit of a car crash, and has attracted equal amounts of fascination, notoriety and amusement, thanks to her short-lived, and often volcanic, marriages. The first was to Mötley Crüe drummer Tommy Lee (the couple have two grown sons, Brandon, 22, an actor, and Dylan, 21, a musician). They married on a Mexican beach in 1995, four days after meeting, with Anderson dressed in a white bikini, but divorced three years – and one sex tape – later. Musician Kid Rock, whose real name is Bob, was her second, and they wed on a yacht in Saint-Tropez in 2006. Four months later, she filed for divorce. Her most recent husband has been Paris Hilton’s ex, socialite/film producer Rick Salomon, who she married twice: the first time in 2007 (annulled after two months), and again in 2014 – for six months. Her father would always tell her before she got married: “‘You know if you want to get out of here, I have a car in the back. Let’s go. Like, this is your last chance if you don’t want to do this.’ And we always laugh about that because he said it every time.”


She talks lovingly about her two sons, who live in the US, and proudly shows me photos of them on her phone. “They have always been supportive of even my most bizarre decisions and my bizarre marriages. They’ve always been there for me – the last ones to dance at the party.” She remembers how she used to take them to the Playboy Mansion for movie night every Sunday when they were little, as well as to the yearly Easter egg hunt with the other Playmates. “My kids have been there many times,” she says. “They have funny stories. They would be in the Jacuzzi with Marston and Cooper [Hugh Hefner’s sons], and they would come back and say, ‘Do you know what Hef does for a living?’ And I’d think to myself, ‘Oh, I’m nervous about this.’ And they’d say: ‘He takes pictures of naked girls.’ And I’d reply, ‘Oh my God, let’s get out of here.’” When did she confess? “I didn’t have to. Hefner would say so many funny things to them, like: ‘Your mother couldn’t afford clothes when she got here.’ And my kids would reply: ‘You’re not my uncle because you took naked pictures of my mom.’” She laughs. “Oh, this is going to sound so awful in print, but it’s just funny…”

She is more thoughtful and considered when she talks about fame, and how it has affected her. “I was in shock over it. I didn’t want to be an actress, I wasn’t searching for that, but once I did get the attention, I wanted to share it with something more meaningful [her activism], so that’s what gave me meaning, even though I did really silly things. I made choices along the way that were not really big career choices, but I didn’t feel like a serious performer, so I was doing things for fun.”

She landed Baywatch when her then boyfriend, the actor David Charvet, took her to the audition with him. “He was so cute,” she says of the ’90s heartthrob. “He was upset because they gave us both the job. It wasn’t planned. I wasn’t supposed to go. They didn’t even know what to do with me. So they stuck me in a bathing suit and asked me about my life and, really, C.J. Parker [her character] was basically me – a hippie kind of bohemian life, a girl who loved animals and wanted to be at the beach. That was who I was.”

I’ve written a book about staying together and being in love and really working things out. Because I do believe in being in love

She met and married Tommy Lee at the height of the show’s success, but the crew were always wary of his visits. “He was very possessive, he didn’t like me around other men so it was difficult on that show. If they knew Tommy was coming on set they would change the script – they were so worried about me. I mean, I guess I can be jealous at times, but not like that. Sometimes when somebody’s jealous with you, you start becoming like them. Because you also start thinking if they’re jealous… how could they even dream this up? What are they doing?” She says she was never jealous of him, and conversely says they are still close. “Even though it was probably a crazy time, he might have been one of my easiest relationships.” She looks up to the ceiling and laughs out loud. “I don’t want to talk too much about Tommy or men in general, but I look back now and I think…” She lets out a loud gasp. “You know, I’ve written a book [Lust for Love] about staying together and being in love and really working things out. Because I do believe in being in love.”

And what of the Hoff, David Hasselhoff, her Baywatch co-star – were they great friends? There is a surprising pause before she answers. “I didn’t really spend too much time with him but… he loved being him. It was almost like he didn’t understand. He would give out 8x10 photos of himself to fans all day and send his assistants to give them out, too. At Christmas, he would give us his CDs and calendars. I remember him being on two phones all the time, even off-camera, and he would always talk to me looking at my forehead.” She makes it clear they weren’t close. He comes across like a typical Hollywood narcissist, I say. “It’s an epidemic now,” she replies, nodding, “not just in Hollywood. Nobody really has to think outside of themselves anymore.”


From narcissism we move on to the casting couch. It’s not surprising to hear she’s been the victim of harassment. “I’ve been asked plenty of times to go to hotel rooms – I’ve even gone to a hotel thinking there was a meeting and then they’ve said, ‘Oh, no, it’s up in the bungalow.’ I remember saying, ‘No, no. No, thank you.’” She never had a run-in with Harvey Weinstein except on the phone. “Harvey was just cruel. I have never been spoken to that way.” She asked him not to use a real dog in the 2008 film Superhero Movie. “And he said, ‘I’m putting Pamela Anderson in a film… you’re lucky.’ I think people knew he was a little lecherous, but most of Hollywood is. The casting couch is not a myth.”

She met her current boyfriend, Adil, in Monaco two years ago and they have been together, for the most part, ever since. “It was one of those moments. I was going to leave Saint-Tropez and he signed with Marseille and asked me to come with him. I just said no PlayStation here in Cassis – that’s all,” she says, referring to her boyfriend’s devotion to the gaming device. So, the age difference is a problem? “It’s not a physical issue. But I feel that he has so much life to live. I told him to go to Brazil for a year. Do something… find yourself.” She has since introduced him to yoga and veganism. “He’s experimenting,” she says. Interesting for a Frenchman, I say; they can be quite traditional. “Ah, but he can still do what he wants, he’s very open to it. He loves it.” Does he expect her to dress in a certain way, too? “Well… he picked the wrong girl,” she laughs. “I think I am pure torture. I think I’ve tested him on every level. It’s why I got the house in Cassis [they were originally living in Marseille together]; I said if you want to be with me, this is how I’m happy and this is something maybe I can show you. I’m not a little girl sitting here on the couch watching PlayStation – I did that a couple of times. Maybe twice. Before I went, OK, that’s enough.”

She describes being in a relationship with a soccer player 18 years younger as “self-sabotage”. “Yes, it’s fun. It’s taking chances. It’s not doing what everybody tells you to do. And you know, I guess I didn’t choose people – they chose me, and they were very persistent. I didn’t chase them.” So, who would she describe as the most persistent? “I think Adil,” she starts, then changes her mind. “No, Tommy. Adil reminds me of my relationship with Tommy because he will just not let me go; if I’m running away or saying I don’t want this anymore, there’s just no chance of that. Even my mom says, ‘Just give up, you’re not getting away from this one.’ He does the craziest, wildest things but not in a bad way. He’s very, very strict; he’s taught me a lot about discipline.”

I have had this resurgence of life where I feel younger than I ever have. I feel like I have a lot more energy


Having essentially given up on acting, apart from the odd project, she now concentrates on the work of her foundation, which focuses on human, animal and environmental rights. She works closely with various organizations, including Peta, Cool Earth and the National Domestic Violence Hotline. What’s the cause that hits her in the gut? “I’m not species-ist, you know, so I think that animals are just as important as humans.” She was already involved with animal charities when she joined the cast of Baywatch. “My first Christmas card to all the crew was a picture of my golden retriever, Star, wearing a watch, with the caption: ‘Every five seconds an animal is lost to animal experimentation.’” She’s at pains to point out that she likes to be seen as a bridge between radicals and everyone else; a translator of intent. “I don’t think you’re a bad person if you eat meat, but don’t wear fur or use plastic.” Is she fully vegan? “Yes, but I am a naughty vegan.” By that she means she’ll have a cappuccino. She can’t remember the last time she ate meat. When Yanis Varoufakis, the economist and former Greek minister of finance, who she describes as “brilliant and charming” (they met through her foundation), recently asked her what she wanted to ban in France, she said: “Foie gras, just stop it.” She’s also in the process of writing a book called Saving Feminism from Feminists. “It’s too much. At this point, it’s like… it’s boring. Women have superpowers and we need to maintain them and we don’t need to talk about it anymore…”

She says she’s now in a really good place with herself: “I have had this resurgence of life where I feel younger than I ever have. I feel like I have a lot more energy.” Her life in France sounds like a gentle one. She wakes up naturally at 7.30am. “I can’t lie in bed – I have to get up, I have to feed Zeus, to do my little things, make my coffee. Adil’s either training or he gets up with me but it’s just very simple, and then I like to go for a walk or to the beach. I love swimming in the sea.” At night, the couple cook together. “He’s a very good cook. I love French food, too, but we just like different things. I was so afraid to cook for him the first time after seeing his mother make couscous. I mean, I like Buddha bowls. I make very clean food, very simple.”

She practiced yoga this morning for the first time in years, with a French surfing instructor, but was surprised by how un-supple her body had become. “I was twisting and turning and my body felt different. I said to myself: ‘No, no, no! Wait a second, let’s stop. This is not me. Surely, I am more flexible than this, there’s a body inside this body that’s me.’ But a little bit of yoga is going to help, because it’s so wonderful. It’s good for everything.” In the background, her French housekeeper Virginie drops something and shouts “sorry” loudly. Pamela giggles and replies in perfect French, telling her not to worry. “She doesn’t speak any English except for ‘sorry!’ That’s all you need to know, ‘sorry’,” and laughs again.

I have always been very imaginative… I feel like Sherlock Holmes; I don’t know what I’m doing, but sometimes something will really trigger me and I’ll take a picture of it and then I’ll write about it and it’s like I’m finding clues or some kind of synchronicities

“Carl Jung,” she says, when I ask her what book has made the greatest impression on her. “Memories, Dreams, Reflections – I was fascinated by him. There was something in the book called Alchemy [Psychology and Alchemy appears in Volume 12 of The Collected Works of C.G. Jung, a study of the analogies between alchemy, Christian dogma and psychological symbolism], it said, ‘If you’re reading this, you’ve obviously undergone some kind of traumatic religious experience that you’re trying to put into…’ I was like, wow. I remember shutting the book and saying to myself: ‘Why am I reading this? I’m not taking a psychology course, I’m not taking any philosophy course, what am I reading all these things for?’ I kind of stopped for a little while but then I suddenly realized how it was helping me. Whenever I got into a downward spiral, writing too much poetry and feeling a little bit depressed…”


So now, she often goes to sleep reading Jung’s biography. “I don’t know why. I just know it sets me right back on track. It’s very strange. Sometimes, years have gone by and I’ve said to myself, ‘OK, I’m miserable, what’s happening?’ I had an analyst who was part of his inner circle. He was really interesting. And very old – now he’s in his nineties. He couldn’t talk any sense into me either.” It sounds like she has depressive episodes? “Yeah, I think… I don’t know what it is. I have always been very imaginative. When I was a lot younger, I would have these kind of out-of-body things, and then later in my life I would just start reading and reading and reading or writing and writing and writing, and still to this day I do that. I feel like Sherlock Holmes; I don’t know what I’m doing, but sometimes something will really trigger me and I’ll take a picture of it and then I’ll write about it and it’s like I’m finding clues or some kind of synchronicities…”

She looks fondly at her dog. “I am a Vancouver Island girl with a respect for nature. Wherever I go, I stick my feet in the ocean and make a prayer to the whales.” One of her greatest influences has been the British designer Dame Vivienne Westwood, who she says calls herself “the angel of democracy”. They met when the designer invited her to one of her fashion shows. “I don’t even remember the clothes – I was just fascinated and we started talking, then we did campaigns together.”

She says she finds the fashion industry difficult because of the use of animal products and the waste that it encourages. “If fur walks down the runway… I’m like, ‘Oh, what was this?’ Back in my Playboy days, it was easy for me because I wore no clothes [laughs], but if we’re going to choose clothing, and even Vivienne would say this, pick a few good things and don’t be a hoarder and don’t consume so much. And I’m lucky, I have a lot of friends who send me things, like Stella McCartney. Her father gave me the Linda McCartney Memorial Award, the first one after she passed. But I’m not a big shopper. My boyfriend likes to shop for me. He’s an insane shopper. He shops on his own for me because he knows I can’t stand it. We both love Off-White, the radicalness of it, and I’m actually inspired by it.”

I am a Vancouver Island girl with a respect for nature. Wherever I go, I stick my feet in the ocean and make a prayer to the whales


She’s designing a line of vegan handbags made from apple waste (specifically apple skins), which she’s funding herself in collaboration with Ashoka, a global network of social entrepreneurs and activists. “I’ve been funding vegan things for years and it never went anywhere. I was ahead of my time…” The line, which she says will be “very chic and elegant”, will include “radical statements” concealed inside. She’s also collaborated with Russian designers on fake-fur coats.

It’s time for me to catch my flight back to London and, as we say goodbye, I ask her if I can take her picture. “No, no, no,” she says. “I look terrible.” Of course you don’t, I say. She’s not sure. It’s for my husband, I confess. “Ah,” she says, with a smile of recognition. This is a story she knows well. She obliges and poses standing up against a chair, on tip-toe, one leg kicked up a little in the air, a well-worn reflex. She throws her head back, she smiles coquettishly, nervously. For the next few weeks I show that picture to every male acquaintance I know, young or old. Their reactions are identical: knowing smiles, thoughts clear as day. She’s still got it, they all say. Never mind the men – I will forever bow at the altar of the wondrous sex-bomb that is Pamela Anderson.